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Thursday, September 8, 2016

Menyesal...

Hmmm... very typical word yet got very deep impact..
Semalam...
To my some of dearest friends, will be very good day..

but for me.. really shit day...
Lama sangat dah benda ni happen and for some reason, semalam dah tak boleh tahan la kot... after few years back there...

Apa yang aku kesal ialah i loose control my self and doing something stupid which is tak dengar apa yang husband aku cakap...
i really regret because of one stupid provoke, i loose control...

because of some stupid provoke, aku dengan adik aku bertengkar macam bodoh... bertengkar sebab orang yang aku consider stranger...

really... that was so stupid...
luckily ucuk acin not so much understand right now my stupid action...
aku sepatutnya dengar cakap by...

this unwanted stranger buat aku dan adik aku bercekau macam nak mati...

then... SHE  should be happy la... this is what she ever want...
and for me.. i lost my adik la...

its okay... aku pun tak sure aku di pihak yang betul atau tak... Allah adalah Hakim untuk semalam. Sometimes people tend to imagine they are right infacts they are wrong...

something like 'syirik' which is 'menyekutukan Allah' also change to be ' memutuskan silaturahim'.. oh my Allah... sebab tu aku kata very useless fight and very shameless thought...

aku tak salahkan adik aku yang cakap cause dia tak tahu... tapi ada ustazah yang dia kenal beritahu dia... sebab tu dia confident cakap macam tu...

AND... AND... AND...

im not to that level to update something about stupid fight on facebook...

thats it... memang cukup la kot... this thing being more and more serious and SHE EVEN THREATEN ME in her mesej...

my husband was right... i fight uselessly for RM300... patutnya aku dengar cakap by.. bagi je la RM300 tu.. xpayah nak kecoh2... tapi aku degil... so.. aku menyesal sebab tak dengar cakap husband aku...

hopefully this will be the end for this in this world period... yet meet in the akhirat esok... hubby aku dah tak izinkan lansung aku buat tindakan bodoh lagi... like... "bersemuka"... hahaha....  betula cakap by.. lebih baik kita diam dan biarkan je la apa yang orang nak fikir buruk pasal diri kita... because that thing is more worth than stupid fight...

theres so much thing lagi yang keluar which is aku rasa menyesal juga... sepatutnya semua tu simpan sampai mati.. tapi sebabkan perasaan marah aku tu, semuanya keluar...aku hilang adik aku... tapi xpe, satu hari nanti adik aku akan faham... apa yang sebenarnya aku nak sampaikan semalam tapi tak sampai sebab dia pun nak mengamuk.. hahaha...

but.. this is also good for lesson learn... so next time ill be more cool bout this issue and matters... and be like more to..." dont stick your nose in to other people busines".